As I sit here eating my salad I find myself thinking of what my life will be like this day next year. I wonder if I will be thinking back to today and be happy that I mustered up enough courage to embark on this life changing experience and finally did it. I'm happy with myself because I feel happy with myself on the level of realizing that this is the time.
I went to the mall today with my best friend Kelsey. She is 140lbs and works in the fashion industry in NYC. I think she is beautiful but she never thinks so. I realized today for the first time that it isn't just women and men who are over weight that don't feel good about themselves. Now I know I have watched TV and seen interviews online with celebrities talking about how they have issues with their bodies even though by most of societies standards that fit way below the average mark. I never REALLY believed what these celebrities said because they embarked on a career choice that made them public figures. They choose to be in the spotlight, be in movies, go to award shows and be household names. They choose to be looked at as their job. Now a days all we hear about are the celebrities, singers, actresses and actors, who looked like the mass population of the world (slightly plumb or FAT in the public eye) losing weight on Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers or Nutrasystem or whatever. They are becoming less like me and more like the people who make fun of me. =(
I don't know how I feel about what I ate today...
I didn't eat a lot and it bugs me because not eating a lot also means I didn't reach my minimum fruits and vegetable requirements. I realized yesterday that I eat a shit-load of CARBS, like seriously a lotttt of carbs. Both good carbs and bad carbs, but still a lot of carbs.
TODAY:
food-
-1 slice of Country Oat Bran Bread
-2 slices of sliced Turkey Breast Meat
-1.5 slices of White American Cheese
-4 pieces of Italian style baked pizza dough
-1 teaspoon of virgin olive oil
-1 teaspoon of shredded Parmesan cheese
-2.5 cups of Penna pasta
-1 cup of pasta sauce
-1/2 of 1 breaded lean chicken breast
-1 cup of mozzarella cheese
-lettuce
-carrots
-1 tbsp of light Italian dressing
ta-da
My food intake today!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha
Yeah that's what I was thinking, there are a lot of carbs in your diet, why not save bread, doughs and pastas for once or twice a week?
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